Siiiiiigh. I do not know my type. I was hoping to get an outsider's opinion.
I have come to the conclusion that I am an introvert. I need my alone time to recharge and think (although I do sometimes feel energized when talking to people... weird. I'M WEIRD). I do like being around people, having laughs, good times, etc. But I think that stems from the fact that I have a strong desire to connect with people. For instance, sometimes I'll be on the metro and just have a strong urge to talk to someone. Ironically, it is quite difficult for me to do so. I can become pretty shy and self-conscious and I tend to feel pretty defensive when meeting people. I don't want to give people the chance to hurt me (how cliche). I like to analyze my behavior and past experiences. It takes me a few days (or weeks, months) to digest things and form an opinion. It's hard for me to understand how I feel in the present. I feel that it is easy for me to see multiple sides of a situation, which also makes it hard for me to make definitive judgements. Obviously, I have gut reactions to things and have an opinion about everything, however, I do not like to express it until I know all of the facts. I feel like everything is constantly changing and evolving, including myself (which makes it difficult to pin down a type for myself). I sometimes feel overwhelmed by how much I don't know and understand... I want to understand people and their subsequent relationships to others & the world. I think that I do come off as a thinker a lot of the times and I guess I am.... I do think a lot haha. But I don't really see myself as being totally logical and rational. While I have a tendency to be more on the analytical side (rather than just accepting) and am able to see what is logical and what is not, my actions tend to reflect how I feel. I get stressed and blow up easily. I sometimes think that I don't feel enough sympathy for people. It's something I have struggled with, especially recently. When i really think about it though, I do feel empathy for people. People's struggles really do affect me (I am tearing up right now typing this, thinking about it) and I sometimes have an overwhelming desire to just pick people up and help them. But it's hard for me to express that desire. I think that I sometimes have a lot of feelings but no mode of communication. I daydream a lot... thinking about the future excites me. But at the same time I am a very nostalgic person (Si?), I have a lot of "remember when..." conversations with people. I don't really understand the N/S functions too well. I do know that I am introspective person, although sometimes I think I try to push it away. I don't know, I feel that I have a lot of underlying psychological issues that can distort my perception of what my type could be. I have a lot of dreams, but am kinda lazy... I think this comes from the fact that I can be a perfectionist at times. I want so badly to follow my impulses but I get scared of failing. I'm pretty indecisive about stupid things (should I buy Charmin or Angel Soft toilet paper? Blue or yellow? Hmmm... what a conundrum) but I like to think that when it comes to big decisions (like where to go to college for example), I know what I need. Although, I do think that sometimes I am afraid to follow my heart (esp. with relationships) because I don't want to be wrong. I can be a bitch to people sometimes. I'm quite honest and expect the same from others. But it is because I care and love people that I'm honest. I like to think about what others are thinking/feeling.
Something else: So I'm in the process of choosing a phone and I noticed that I have been making the decision based on logic. What does that say about me? Gahh, but I just don't relate to the T types. Maybe I just dont want to . who da fuck knowz.
Yeah, so I could probably go on forever, but really who would want to read that? I feel that I am quite paradoxical and it takes me a while to get to the "real" me. Sorry for being so self-centered! But please, your feedback would be much appreciated