This has probably been done to death, but please bear with me.
The first time I did the test the result was INTP. It didn´t feel completely right, so I almost immediately redid it, this time differentiating more between how I saw myself and how I wanted to be and ended up INFP. This sounded closer to home, even though I didn´t see myself as a picture book version. There has been one more occasion later on where I came out INTP, but I went with INFP, telling myself that, well, I was an INFP with a nice T/F-Balance (54% F the last time I checked).
Now, I recently started therapy (self esteem issues, an inability to stand up for myself and low energy levels) and redid the same test as the last time (the long version on similarminds) and - behold: INTP. I have to admit I might have pushed it a bit, but I tried to really be honest, especially about the part about social considerations. I never fully grasped the concept of FI, but looking at the description of the INTPs cognitive processes on the link that VagrantFarce recommended it struck me like lightning: that´s me..oh my god... it explains everything: an INTP with very strong Fe who had to learn to use a combination of Ne and Fe to please others, be a nice little girl, etc., since that was expected of me (long story coming down to having to be nice and perfect in order to earn other people´s acceptance and love). I always felt ashamed for giving so much importance to intellect (both in myself and others) since life was supposedly all about being nice and pleasing others. I just didn´t see my Ti for what it is, since I have always felt closer to the humanities than to natural science (basically: if I am not a science and computer nerd - even though I am interested in science and could be described as a bit of a geek in my areas of interest - I can not be an NT).
Okay, so that goes to show how little I know about types and cognitive functions. But besides that: Am I completely delusional or could it be that therapy is slowly unlocking the sleeping INTP inside (who is still pretty feely, anyway)? How can I tell when my whole self image is shifting at the moment? And should I have lived most of the past 30 years with an INFP mask - how do I tell the real me from a mask that has been a part of me for so long? This is a whole new world opening up at the moment, which is a dizzying experience!
Has anybody had similar experiences? Any insights on how to tell the real from the illusion?
Thanks in advance and sorry for the overlength, no extra entry fee will be charged