Iím trying to figure out if Iím an INFJ (with high Ti) or INTJ (With high Fi). Iíve been taking MBTI tests since I was about 15ish and have gotten INFJ 99% of the time. I used to fit the description perfectly. As a kid I was a ďfeelerĒ, although I was also very analytical. I was lost in my thoughts a lot. I didnít fit in because I just wasnít interested in what most other kids were interested in. I saw the consequences to potential actions, so I decided not to do something stupid because I knew I wouldnít get away with it. Most of my life has been spent in a deep depression. I have always been capable of being logical but I ignored the logic in favor of emotion (especially during my teenage years). This, of course, got me into trouble. I have multiple suicide attempts and hospital stays under my belt. But last year something happened and I was forced into a sink or swim situation. It was a huge reality check. I made the choice to put logic and reason above emotion, especially when it comes to decision making, because Iíve learned that I canít trust emotion like I can logic. So, lately Iíve been testing INTJ. When I read the description for INTJs it fits me very well. I donít think I fit the INFJ description nearly as well as the INTJ one. I donít know if it was my hormones which made my F more prominent during adolescence or if the ďreality checkĒ last year made my T more obvious.
I made a list to hopefully help:
- Iím a perfectionist. Iím not satisfied until something is finished or decided upon. I can be quite anal and controlling.
- I have difficulty making decisions because I can see so many different sides to something. My mind can be really conflicted and I tend to send mixed messages because I canít make up my mind or donít know how to express my feelings.
- I feel a lot and usually donít have trouble expressing my feelings. I can get pretty hung up, though, on the correct word to use to describe exactly what Iím feeling. So, sometimes I can send mixed messages because Iím unsure of exactly what it is, which tends to irritate people.
- Iíve always been empathetic. I can understand where people are coming from. I can see all sides of an argument. And I think situation should be taken into account. Itís not always black and white. Although I can be compassionate and understanding, Iím not afraid to let people know what I think of them and their actions.
- Iím so analytical. I think and think and get lost in my thoughts all the time. I have trouble falling asleep because of it. I canít seem to stop thinking. I critique everything. I try not to be quick to judge, but I am. I might not verbalize what Iím thinking right off, though, because I want to make sure I have all the information needed before making a decision.
- I can read people and situations quite well. I can see how events will play out. All the possible outcomes. I can tell if someone is fake or genuine (especially in person). I notice details and it helps me to understand people and where they are coming from and if they are being honest.
- Although I can be detail-oriented, I donít get so lost in the details that I canít see the big picture. I am able to use the little details I see to apply to my understanding of the big picture, so that Iím better equipped to make decisions.
- I can be sensitive. I can be hurt easily, especially by people Iím close with. This alone makes me think Iím an INFJ, because I've heard that INTJs arenít sensitive.
- Iím incredibly shy. I donít open up to people I donít know well. Most people, who think they know me, donít.
- I donít like that I discriminate people by intelligence, but I do. I only really talk to people I think are worthy. I have pretty high standards. If someone doesnít meet them, I usually block that person out.
- I can be harsh with people. Iím more of a ďtough-loveĒ kind of person. Overly emotional people really irritate me. I canít deal with them for very long. Iím not saying I canít handle a healthy dose of emotion now and again, but when people are so caught up in their feelings that they fail to realize they have options, it really gets to me. Whatís even worse is people who do things just for attention. When I encounter people like this, I usually call them on it or just ignore them because they arenít worth my time. And, no, this doesnít make me feel guilty.
- I suck at math.
- I love art. Iím drawn to artsy, intellectual pursuits. I love music and I write poetry.
- I also love languages. Different languages and ways of speaking and communicating fascinate me.
- I donít like conflict, but I wonít avoid it if I think itís necessary or inevitable. In fact, I tend to ďget it over withĒ if Iím able to foresee it happening anyways.
- I prefer closure to things being open-ended. I feel better after a decision has been made.
- I really like to label myself. I like to know exactly what I am and how I think. I can handle other people not being labeled (though I prefer that they are) but when it comes to myself, I feel this need to have a label. I want to be able to understand myself better.
- I can come off being nosy with people I know well and am close with. I'm not nosy because I like to know peoples business, I'm nosy because I'm a planner. And the more information I have, the better plan I can have for the future, whether it be near or far off.
I took the cognitive functions test and here are my results:
- ***************** Te
- *************** Ni
- *************** Ti
- ************* Fi
- ************* Ne
- ************ Si
- *********** Fe
- *** Se
Your Possible Type Code
According to the traditional sorting method of finding the most-used functional pairs (such as Fi-Ne), your type might be:
Possible result: INTJ
We are also trying a new sorting method to try to indicate best-fit type. This method is experimental and may not match your type.
Your Developmental Report
Your pattern of responses indicates a developmental level in each cognitive processes. Since this is experimental, this report may be in error.
You notice this process and enjoy when others use it but only occassionally find yourself engaging in it. You may marvel at others who do it very well. It doesn't appear useful to you personally and can annoy you if others use it too much.
You actively use this process in your daily life as a useful tool or helpful aid. You could live without it but use definitely contributes to the what you do and who you are. You can work with others using this process, usually in a support role.
You create value, aid others and get things done everyday using this process. You function well here, know all the ins and outs, strengths and limits of this process. You have made this process your own, something personal and unique to you.
You sustain and grow yourself and those around you long-term through this process. You are at your best, your peak creative and leadership moments when engaged in this process. This is a lead role; it is who you are and what you truly do.
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I know this is really long, but I wanted to give as much information as I could think of.