I've read through a lot of the ENTPvsENTJ forum and it doesn't seem to be helping with my predicament. People keep posting witty, oversimplified stereotypes in an effort to explain the differences, and it's just confusing me. Here's some stuff about me:
-I love to plot things and plan things. Whether it's detailed choreography of a romantic assault, or a revenge plan that could get someone killed, I look at the world like a chessboard and screw it around in my head. I mean, the plans don't always work, but I still have fun with it.
-I love having friends. Well, no, "love" is a strong word. It's just nice to have people you can rely on to help you through tough s***. I have tons of friends and I'm always terrified of offending them - not necessarily because I care about their feelings, but I'm just terrified of losing their support. Everyone jokes that I'm an evil, tyrannical overlord, but most of them think I'm a sweetie at heart. Which I'm not.
-I do everything indirectly. I hate situations that require me to do something out of my comfort zone, so I "hire" some friends to do my dirty work or come up with an elaborate scheme which involves manipulating COUNTLESS people to achieve a simple goal.
-I have NO experience being a leader. I can be convincing, I can be kind, I can win people over. But I can't order them around. I love controlling people, but I can't bring myself to actually get them to do exactly what I want them to, because I'm too worried about losing their favor. Projects I'm put in charge of usually fail because I can't fully take control of the situation, as much as I'd like to. If I COULD fully control people, I'm sure I could make things work.
-I organize everything... in ways that make sense to me. But even with my careful planning and logical mind, I end up being late for everything with my papers falling out all over the place. Everyone thinks I'm a slob. I'm really not.
-I crave new ideas and information, and people THINK I'm creative - I love writing, drawing, all this stuff. But I can't always come up with something amazing and revolutionary off the top of my head. I usually need some kind of prompt or framework.
-I'm great at math. Sorry, just thought it was worth mentioning.
Wow, I typed a lot... that was probably really boring. But I'm no expert at this typology stuff, and I currently have a compulsive need to know which I am and I'd love some objective opinions. Either type jump out at you?