So after I found out that I am not a jerk but rather estj and after I then crawled back to the "least of all evils" namely entp, I am gonna settle for entj.
I am a socionics believer and what bugged me the most for the whole year now, is that Socionics does describe my relationship to my infj in a way, which is not true. Therefore either my type or hers is wrong. Due to me being better at typing others than myself and being convinced she is a socionics infj, I now go for socionics entj for myself.
I am convinced that I am convinced about nothing. And I am convinced that all of my efforts on getting things settled or straight with my feeling about a type decision, concerning an insane type system, will eventually result in a mental illness.
Therefore I am setteling things here and now and for all times. So I may find peace someday, cause there is nothing which would suck more than an idea you cant identify with. Is there ?