Ok you guys, I need some help. I don't know if I'm a sensor or intuitive anymore. This post is inspired by an excellent post on Ptgatsby's blog.
Aside from trying to figure out what my pure default position is, I found a previous post Jennifer made about sensing and intuiting. I have no doubt that I'm an EFJ, but now I'm confused whether my perceiving function is introverted sensing or introverted intuition.
Here's where I stack up on S and N according to the info in Jen's post:
likes exact facts
focus on effectiveness
facts are valuable
likes original ideas
focuses on novelty
enjoys knowledge for its own sake
facts make patterns
Deciding between which of the descriptors is not just a matter of simple forced choice. I feel like I do these things equally and I don't know which ones are my default. For example, I like to learn things just to know but I also like to apply what I've learned. When reading descriptions, deciding between the ESFJ and ENFJ is a less difficult, I think ENFJ is more accurate but my perception could be skewed because of dominant Fe. I mean look at the descriptions, would you rather be this
Or this:People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.
Such a hard decision.ESFJs respect and believe in the laws and rules of authority, and believe that others should do so as well. They're traditional, and prefer to do things in the established way, rather than venturing into unchartered territory. Their need for security drives their ready acceptance and adherence to the policies of the established system. This tendency may cause them to sometimes blindly accept rules without questioning or understanding them.
I'm not trying to figure out which description fits me more accurately, I want to figure what my perceiving function is. I can read descriptions on my own and I have at least a dozen books chock full of descriptions and I've reached the conclusion that the descriptions are bullshit.
I also have been doing some research in the NEO-PI (five factor model) and looking at the openness scores. I took a web version of the test and had high openness, but I don't know if I was testing to get a certain score.
Another thing is I may be resistant to actually being a sensor. Pt went over the reasons in his blog, but when I think about it if I'm a sensor, it's going to take me a while to break the stereotypes that have accumulated in my mind about sensors. Even though I've railed so loudly against sensor stereotypes I still very much see it in action IRL and that scares me to think that I may be part of that group, that people may view me in that way. I don't think being a sensor is bad as long as I'm not it, get it? I know, quite hypocritical of me. When you suddenly become part of that group then you keep thinking to yourself, hey that's not me! Or at least I do, and I don't want to be labeled in that way. I don't think there's anything inherently wrong with being a sensor, but when I see Sensors Behaving Badly, I want to run in the opposite direction, although I feel the same way when intuitives do it. Since I don't have enough intuitives in my life to make it obvious the only times I see Intuitives Behaving Badly is on MBTI forums. I know how the internet causes people to do things that they normally wouldn't do so such more for that.
In the end I know that it's going to be my choice and nobody else can tell me what I am or what I'm not. I'm just curious about other people's input.