I was inspired by Santtu's comment in this post to finally start my own "What's my type?" thread. I was thinking of adding numerous posts to this site, so I could be typed based on my speech alone, but I just wasn't up to it.
BTW, I haven't visited this site since last August (I joined in July), so lack of participation accounts for my pathetic post count.
For the time being, I don't have any friends. I also don't go out of my way to make friends with people. I can't blame shyness for this anymore because I don't have anything to fear, I'm just not interested. After moving from one town to another when I was fifteen, I lost touch with all my former friends. Even though I liked them when I knew them, (I exchanged phone #'s with several particular girls) we never kept in touch, becuase I didn't want to act 'clingy'. Of course I made friends after I moved, but I felt like I had to please them all the time in order to stay friends with them. I hated that very much, so we went our seperate ways after highschool.
I spent a lot of time alone during my childhood, however, I liked spending time with my two female cousins (lots of sleepovers, outings, ect.) I also think that I was a lot more extraverted when I was younger (I laughed a lot, had 'groups' of friends, etc.), but over time I grew out of that phase. I used to be friends with one girl in particular (we would fight like hornets) and after a while I hated being around her. Never had any great experiences during gradeschool.
I have always been more emotionally attached to my mother than my father. From the time I was six to eight years old, my mother would work evenings and either my father or my friend's mother would look after me. My relationship with my friend was quite strained (we would consistently walk on eggshells with eachother) and my father lived in front of a computer screen. His fascination with video games and music led to my love for both mediums. Music makes me fantasize like crazy. Whenever I fantasized when I was younger, I would imagine myself in a world which was an amalgamation of video games and televison shows (mainly cartoons) where I would interact with my favorite characters. This habit has embarassingly led me to develop an innate preference (romantically) for fictional characters. I rarely get crushes on real people. It's strange, but for some reason I find fictional characters (depending on the show/game) to be more attractive than real people. Speaking of which, I have never had a boyfriend, been asked out, asked anyone out, or dated anyone in real life.
I am spiritual (I beleive in God, higher beings, etc.), but I do not follow any religion in particular. I don't find neither atheism or spirituality harming in any way, I just would like to believe that I live for a purpose, and that I am not just another 'warm body' existing on the face of the earth.
Thanks for reading.