I've been lurking around the forums on and off, mainly stalking the threads where they type characters, celebrities and so on. However, lately I've been kind of longing for a new online community to join and thought this would be a fun and active community to be around. I've done gazillion mbti tests myself and I seem to be borderline between INFP and INTP, same goes with my socionics, at times it's IEI, on another take it's ILI so go figure. Enneagram has been both 4w5 and 5w4 so there's a bit of a blur there as well, but since it's been 4w5 a bit more often, I'm sticking with that. I recognize a big part of both INFP and INTP in myself but lately I've been leaning more towards INFP because it seems like my whole life is just a miserable loop of FiTe and all the issues I have with myself and my life seems to be because of Fi.. Hate it, but also love it because it allows me to have a rich and full life completely inside my head and I like living inside my head because real life tends to be a depressing bore.
As for my life, I'm an information science student, intending to specialize on planning, programming and running search engines. I enjoy searching the Internets for information about whatever happens to interest me at the moment, sometimes watching anime or movies, reading books, playing PS3 and so forth. In general I stay a bit further away from people IRL, I long for deep and meaningful friendships but the path of getting to such a personal level just requires too much effort and chit-chat about shallow things. And the above-mentioned FiTe-loop tends to scare my closest people away because of out-of-nowhere emotional, aggressive outbursts, while not scary in nature, unsettling mostly because I usually appear completely void of emotion. So yeah, besides school I've got just too much time in my hands and I figured a new forum would be a good place to have at least some decent amount of human interaction besides my INFJ sweetheart who's the one keeping me at least somehow anchored in reality with his desire to see things sorted and carried out.
Happy to meet all of you guys and hope you'll bear with me..