Somewhat lost. I had no idea how the world worked. It appalled me that I had to find a direction and earn a living. I was at London Uni doing a higher degree - and wasn't very good either. I Had the chance to move to NZ at age 23 which I took.
Got married in NZ, higher degree was going much better, but I became a bit of an arrogant tosspot that thought he was God's gift to the world. This was the case until the end of the 80s when I'd have been around 40 even after my career in science had fallen in a screaming heap.
Originally Posted by xisnotx
And what are you like now?
This phase has its origins in the big economic changes of the 80s (happened all the way round the world at the same time) and, as I said before, my ENFP girlfriend (platonic) introducing me to the MBTI. This was the start of my becoming more self-aware and more aware of the value of others. I also had a major swing in political views from right (because trade unions had too much power) to left (because big bizznuss had/still has too much power) - and now probably more green than anything. I also became religious (I'm an INTP - so liberal Christian, never, never, EVER fundamentalist) in 1999 after the death of a Down's child. I count theology as one of my major interests. I probably haven't changed a great deal since the turn of the century and not a lot more since about 1990.
Incidently it took me about TWO YEARS to work out that I had an INTP rather than INFP preference. Whenever strife occurred it was always that IT function I turned to. However, what I do try to do is use others' advice and prefer F for decisions about people and T for decisions about things. But, as I said, T will overrule F when in doubt.
You do develop a certain wisdom as you grow older and I like to think I have done that. However very little of it involves the concrete world of big bizznuss about which I know very little and I'm happy to keep it that way. What matters to me is humanities, arts, and sciences. All the rest is bullshit.
Well. Looks like I've been on here for 8 days now. Do you know - I can write whatever the hell I like. Nobody judges me. Nobody thinks I'm a complete tosser. This is pretty much a public forum and I can be myself in a roomful of thousands and be so totally without fear. I know that eventually I'm going to say or do something incredibly stupid but, unless I'm prepared to risk that, I cannot be myself. And do you know - I'm totally confident that if this happens I WILL be OK.