Greetings and salutations.
I'm 22.8R years old and still unsure of what I am.
If I don't know myself well enough, how can I trust myself to open up to anyone?
My life till I was 22.7: pretty much empty than I am at present.
It was this tidal wave called personality type
that have me clung to the edge surface of a cliff now.
I was seeking for answers in my forlorn search in vain.
For no one knew what I was, oh shame for neither did I.
Am I falling? Am I gonna fall into the abyss of nothingness?
Is this the answer to all that meaningless journey up to this point?
It may also be meaningless, for all that was lost, oh why not wait and see.
When did I hear the word 'introvert' and its antonym 'extrovert'... when I was 17... oh what a waste.
Spending almost an entire day reading... researching... testing...
My entirety was reduced to simple but curious, four letters. 'ISFP'
I knew I was 100% whole grain.
Trying to cram into the Society just felt awkward.
It felt as: a hopeless attempt to fit myself into an already-full subway train.
IessEffpee? sounds bizarre but nothing extraordinary to my emptiness.
The next day I started thinking of writing "I S F P" on my white, blank T-shirt.
My intent was stopped by further testing of personality types from a different source. This time, I was labeled "I S F J". Just what the ---- am I?? I then had doubts about these so-called testings. It was probably inaccurate because I haven't paid a penny into it, I mumbled. I did 5 (or 6) personality type tests from all different sources and ended up having gone back to the square one.
My thoughts were in shambles. I could no longer decide WHAT THE @#$% I was.
I thought about it... was getting dizzy by this time. Didn't wanna continue reading without eating. I forgot about it till Day 5.
I had to summarize what I had been reading so far, and to add any relative and new info if they would fit in my inherent judgment of myself.
Starting from all the bookmarks... scratches... notes... @_@
Deleting links I didn't need... all summed up to 25 total bookmarks open for further investigation.
-Day 6 (Today)-
Okay... so up to this point I think I'm a product of these four types:
ISFP / ISFJ / INFP / INFJ
I didn't think it was easy to find it out and so I didn't settle right on the first remark and result being 'ISFP'.
What am I missing??? I'm sure there are more introvert types... oh here it is:
♠ Portraits on Personality Page
"The Sixteen Type Portraits"
--too dizzy to read more--
I guess it varies from person to person whether they may be the I or E types to what they are born with, what they are born to be.
No article has ever been able to impress me more than any, other than this:
INFJs' +s and -s
Every sense written on this page reflects me, while other pages have facts that are partially true.
Every meaning from all its paragraphs perfectly match me. I think I'm not sure. Or that I'm missing a lot of stuff. It's as if I have some screws loose or missing.
If I'm not either one or any one of those, then am I retarded?