I am an INTP 5w4-8w9-4w5. I recently heard that this is a more mature typology board than some of the others, so I came to check it out.
A little about me:
I deeply resent being human. When I was a child, my sole desire was in understanding. I consumed reading material, and quietly observed people and situations like I was on an exciting safari – eating up every bit of it. The universe was something to be understood and mastered. And I absolutely could understand and master it, without a doubt. Then I realized that I would die someday.
People are an interesting science to me. They are complex. I am also curious in the occult, paranormal, and anything else that can’t be understood by our limited sciences. If I can simply memorize it in a text book, its not interesting. I want to be able to theorize on my own. I keep most of it private, because its apparently whack-job nutsville. Doesn’t matter that people think that typically, as its only for me. Its when I actually trust someones intellect and open mind enough to bounce ideas off of them, only to find that they revert to the closed-minded bullshit, that I really feel.. rejected.
I keep most of myself very private, and I have been practicing how to appear human for most of my life. I feel a combination of detachment, and power over them.. knowing that I can be in control if I choose to be.
And here are some things that my closest friends would say, to describe me:
“You place an emphasis on willpower and self-reliance. You’re typically very assertive and aggressively inquisitive, but in a healthy manner. You know precisely what you want and precisely how to get it, and you seem to take some satisfaction from this. Willpower is necessarily individualistic and your greatest enemies are those who lack the will to be themselves. You want an individualist world.”
“You are usually reserved, but with an underlying intensity”
“you seem unengaged; dismissive; curious; unexpectant; disgusted. “