Ummm, hello. I don't post, but would like too, maybe. Well...maybe.
The complications are that you may have noticed that I have signed up a long time ago, and, in my opinion made some stupid posts...wait...they weren't really stupid exactly but rushed and uninformed without realizing it at the time, which I guess is what people consider stupid, hence the word of choice; so I guess it fits. But, nevermind.
So, here I am. Why am I here?
1. This is a social kind of forum where users discuss various topics relating to MBTI and make an attempt to socialize with like-minded people? Is this what I think I am desiring for?
2. Or is it more of an exchange of expressing one's desire to socialize? Theory number two.
3. Or do I want to reach out to a specific crowd that inhabits this site out of an interest in a specific psychological knowledge and theory tied in with a desire for a different way to express my consciousness?
4. Or is it that I am fascinated with people and desire to learn about them BECAUSE their consciousness is different from mine and I inhabit a world where I can be forever enthralled by the infinitely changing mystery of another person's consciousness?
Then I wonder about whether it is appropriate to first do a welcome, given that one option above might be what the majority of this place is up-holded by. And if I choose the wrong option, I will affect the place negatively and perform something I do not want to do and will have wasted my time and energy and others time and energy. But then again if I affect the place positively, it is no longer operating on its own, but is now operating slightly differently by being tied in with any influence I impose; and anything I learn will now have some influence of mine and will not be as interesting to me because I already am aware of my own consciousness. So I can decide to post and find out or not. But I'm posting, so either options then don't apply, so I come back to questioning my intentions again. And I fear that by posting I will be forced to create persona's as a means of interacting, where these persona's can be considered myself, and at the same time considered not myself (an act), which becomes a matter of myself making a conscious choice about which one is me. However, what if one is so aware of them self that everything in the realm of human interaction (which again is infinitely changing and mysterious because of this) feels like a huge act. Maybe Shakespeare is right in thinking
- Shakespeare - All the world's a stageAll the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.
Thus, I should probably conclude by saying I am confused and I don't know what I'm doing here and I am unsure of what any expectations I have might be and I am completely uncertain if I care if I will be liked, etc.
So Hi...and oh, I do have one thing to say that contradicts everything I wrote above, if you think about it in a certain way (and no I won't tell you what I'm thinking, that will spoil the fun), "What goes around, comes around." So be nice
Did the previous paragraph just implement a persona?
Hmm, now I'm wondering if I should even post this as it is long and somewhat too sincere for my liking. But I must be quite curious of what will transpire from it because I don't seem to mind. And it's the stupid internet anyway, right? Meh.
Edit: I thought putting a picture would be...too implicating of a certain...description of my cognitive make-up...too focusing of a stereotype, but I think it is also interesting to see how it is perceived or how it might impact how my posts could be received. If this is all very creepy, let me know.