Hey, I've been on here a lot, arguing, defending others, meandering on my quest to figure out who the hell I am. As of yet, however, I have not given an official introduction of myself.
I finally reached the conclusion, with the help and insight of my husband, that I am an ENFP. It never even remotely occurred to me that I could be an extrovert because I essentially hide out in my house all day. But then I realized that extrovert is a misnomer- for my processing, anyway.
I am not a people person. I mean, yeah, some people I love, but I primarily like to be by myself. My attention, however, is extraverted. In other words, it is generally generated outward. I am reading others' words, listening to others' music, contemplating others' ideas, exploring a city, exploring a hiking trail. I am always open to new ideas, new experiences.These are the things which get me excited and motivated to act.
When I do create- which I love to do- it is a constant link of connected ideas, images. I have a hard time maintaining a singular train of thought. My mind leaps from one place to another, the take off and landing being too great of a distance to leave any discernible footprints, which can also make it hard for me to backtrack.
It can be disconcerting and embarrassing sometimes, how my mind wanders. It's like I'm always changing my mind, adding footnotes or appendixes to everything I say, do, or think. I think that's why I stay quiet a lot of the time. I don't want people to think I am flighty and fickle. I'm always kicking myself after I open up because I didn't say what I meant to say, in retrospect, or I said too much and why can't I just learn to keep things to myself? It's a strange place to be, I think, being a self-conscious ENFP, like I feel like it's wrong to be me or if I don't reign it in I'm going to screw everything up, which I have done in the past.
I think Discoverer Advocate is a good description of who I am. First and foremost, I am always discovering new things, new ideas, new places. Secondly, I often find myself defending those (people or animals or plants or buildings, for that matter) I feel have been maligned or misrepresented. This is typically an unconscious process for me- I hate it when people pick on anything or anyone who cannot or are not present to speak up for themselves. This advocacy, sometimes, can get me in trouble, especially with those who take my criticism personally, when all I'm trying to get them to do is to look at the others' point of view, walk around in their shoes (or on their feelers or sit in their condemned foundation) for awhile.
Well, it's cool to have this finally figured out. I hope what I've said is helpful to others who are entertaining the possibility that they could be an ENFP.