so, i have this old friend. he's an enfp male. we used to be really close. talk on the phone everyday for four hours at a time. we never really hung out, because my sister and him used to be really close. he was in love with her, but she never liked him, barely liked him as a friend. it took him over a year to get over her. he called her his first love. i was of course, super jealous. i wasn't at first, at first we were juts friends. but then, i got diagnosed as psychotic. and he was my main delusion. i thought he was perfect for me and hypothetically, i was perfect for him. i thought he wanted a reader following me around and i strived to be that. he told me several things, that now i want to punch him in the face for saying that, because i still believe we're perfect for each other, but he couldn't care less about my existence. he's said that if he were to marry, he would only want to marry someone like me. he's said that he doesn't want him and i to end up like him and my sister. just not talking at all.
he used to be the one who called me and i would call occasionally. and now if we ever talk, i'm the one calling and he couldn't care less about my existence.
is this typical enfp? he just forgets about people from his past?
and me being psychotic, his voice is the voice i hear in my head. so it's almost impossible for me to get over him. trust me, if i didn't have this voice, i would have gotten over him last year, but then i have complete regret because i know, for a fact, that if i wasn't crazy (because when i was crazy, i NEVER and i mean NEVER talked) we would have dated. and we would still be together
this is just me venting mostly, but i need help. i can't get over him, i hear him in my head! and he doesn't give a rat's butt about my existence.