Word. Except for the part about being so emotional, I totally feel you on that. I feel caught up in a continual catch-22. It's not all fun and games being an SP because life is for real and if you can't plan ahead just a little bit it's hell.
What's funny is that my parents were SO fucking concerned that I wouldn't be able to get my shit paid and would fall behind and crap by not writing down transactions in my checkbook, but I've done way better than they ever have. All I do is check my monies and I'm pretty good about remembering bills coming up, probably because I've been so traumatized by their lack of ability to get things taken care of (irony that they're ENTJ and ESFJ).
But as for responsibility, I have a super low attention span and end up slacking off on everything from school to finding a job. I'm kind of an idiot about that. Still trying to figure out how to improve.
And when I get depressed, yes. I feel like that's how it's always been and always will be. Well, I'm pretty optimistic and still figure there'll be a way out, but sometimes that's only a kind of dead mental assertion and all I know is the pain I'm currently in.
Yes, yes, yes. And they seem to enjoy life to boot. I don't wanna be as crazy meticulous as they are or cut out all enjoyments but I idolize them for that all the same.
And amen to unexpected things coming up all of a sudden. Sometimes I feel like people don't get that. It's not that I was slacking off, I just seriously didn't see something coming (which at times appears impossible to me, but somehow Guardians tend to guess those things beforehand, hah).