I'm an ISTP female. I'm not a Tom boy. I hate sports. I have little interest in cars, motorcycles and aeroplanes. I like to be dressed well and look pretty with the smallest amount of effort I can. My skills lie more in the arts, as in literature, painting, drawing and poetry. I'm not greatly interested in animals or nature and I hate cute things. I show interest in topics to do with nature if it seems unusual or new and exciting, but usually only then.
I have a small group of friends and am a leader of sorts in my group. I am generally unapproachable and shy and will only befriend someone who I am able to "click" with but I treat everybody with equal amounts of kindness and aloofness. I believe that I should not have to talk unless I want to. I like to morph and change the opinons and interests of my friends whether it is over time or in a single debate. I try and listen to everybody in the group with equal amounts of attention and care so I am more than a little insulted if I am ignored or forgotten, I expect to be given the same treatment that I give others.
I like to be right and will do everything in my power to be right but will admit defeat when I am wrong. Others often find me too intense or think of my arguing as aggressive, insulting and unnerving, but the fact is I enjoy arguing because it is intellectually stimulating for me and gives me a chance to test my ability in words. It's all playful, to me and I hate it when people make it personal.
I have a pretty crap sense of humour and I don't find most things funny, though many find me funny. Most things aren't funny. Which reminds me, I really hate being surrounded by people laughing and having a good time when I am not part of their fun. It makes me feel left out and it makes me think they're idiots. Whatever, it's a really stupid way to be.
When in an argument I take into account both the emotional and logical points of the argument. I believe that compassion and feelings of a human being in any scenario must be taken into consideration to a certain extent to result in the best outcome. After all, if the nature of mankind is ignored the results can be less than satisfactory in which case the "logical" approach is no longer logical so much as it is impractical.
I like to share my opinions and feelings on just about everything and I do not find it difficult. I prefer to be allowed to write these thoughts and feelings down on paper, however, as I am able to gather my thoughts better in written form than in any other form. When it comes to emotional confrontation concerning someone closer to me I will often ignore my feelings until they become unbearable for me. If it comes to a confrontation with someone who I do not care about, however, I will openly confront, argue and cut down that person with aggression and without backing down.
I like confrontation with people I don't care about because it's thrilling. I do not like confrontation with people I love because it hurts and usually leaves things that I need in a mess.
I don't mind authority. It gives me a chance to relax because decisions are being made for me. I hate making decisions and am a very fickle person and will usually leave decision making till the last minute. In fact I have an Art History assignment I should be doing right now. I like authority because it means I am not completely responsible for things that may or may not go wrong. Unless I care about something I prefer not to have responsibilty over things.
I want to travel. Not because of discovering new things but because I desperately want to find a meaning and purpose behind my life. I feel empty and I feel like a lost cause and I feel pointless. I see little reason in living if it is pointless to me. All I want is to find reason because I am a girl of reason and I need one if I'm going to be happy.