A roommate had asked about us just earlier, and I had wavered in my answer. Anyway the next day after that "moment" I asked a mutual friend (Stariana) about this girl (Amy's) feelings. She made it sound like Amy was totally gung-ho about the whole thing when really she still didn't know what to think. In fact it took her forever to process it all. Well right after that when I went to see Amy I didn't really know what to do other than just come up to her while she was laying on the bed talking to Stariana and just give her a huge peck right on the lips. She blushed and asked what that was all about and I didn't give an explanation. Then after I went home she wanted to "talk" about it over the nets. We each hesitatingly started opening up about the way we felt and eventually realized we were just right.
I do have those moments with her where we look at each other all gooey-eyed. Honestly it feels a bit unusual because she used to never do that, and at first it felt weird for her, too. She's generally not a positive or sappy person, I am. But those moments are definitely packed with incredible intensity. We know each other completely and know that each of us is exactly what the other wants. And time does "slow down" in the sense that those moments are like rocks in a rushing river rapids that slow me down for a moment. I hate being slowed down but the intense pleasure of those moments cause me to linger. It's wrenching and yet fulfilling at the same exact time. Except when we're watching a movie or something, then I'm already slowed down.
And it's a different kind of feeling when we're physically close, more like a blazing fire or like cool refreshing water. It's less intellectual and more immediate and overwhelming, like I'm in another world.
I don't know, it's easier to experience it than to explain it.