First post here...and another NF starving for affirmation from an ISTP. I was wondering if you could give me some feedback on how I could gauge how he's feeling about me.
We've been seeing another on and off now for about two months. Although I was really attracted to him, I dumped him after a few dates because I know that I'm someone that needs alot of affirmation and affection and realized that he wouldn't be able to provide that. Then he wrote me the sweetest email saying he couldn't stand the thought of us having missed out on something potentially great and I was really touched by that. Then we ended up spending an amazing weekend together.
Then what do you know, no news from him for days afterward!!! I was like WTF...and confused all over again. But eventually he called and I invited him over to dinner at my place. He was really touched bec I had put in a lot of effort making the dinner. Then he started to tell me about his doubts...and why he had'nt been in touch...that he wasn't sure if he could provide the level of affirmation that I needed. So of course I was disappointed again. Then we saw each other again when I went to his place to pick up a few of my things, but ofc we ended up making out, and ofc we were officially no longer seeing each other.
He contacted me a few days later and we saw each other again...By that time we were both on the look out for new romantic interests online (we met on an online dating site and I can see when he's online -- I know, I'm so pathetic!! ;p). We spent the night together and when I called him the next day to see if he wanted to spend the Friday evening with me, he said he was waiting for someone else to get back to him so he wasn't sure, but he'd let me know. Ofc I was very disappointed again, thinking if he had to wait for someone else's reply before knowing if he wanted to see me or not that I wasn't very important to him. So then I sent him another email saying I think it would be best if we stop seeing each other altogher. He replied saying that he had a good time with me but bec he just got out of a long-term relationship, he didnt want a serious relationship...that he wished the circumstances could've been different...but he'd like for us to stay in touch.
So it ended pretty much there, and it's been three weeks since we haven't seen each other. He visits my online profile page regularly, we exchanged a couple of friendly emails. A couple of days ago he even took my online questionnaire!! LOL. And I haven't been able to stop thinking about him...I'm almost obsessed! So I called him and asked him if he wanted to me again, he said yes, but not until next week bec he had a crazy schedule this week. Then I asked him if he would ENJOY seeing me again and with difficulty he said yes. But last night I saw him again online on the dating site where he spent the entire evening!! This is the most confusing part, he says he doesn't want a relationship at the same time he really spends an incredible amount of time online trying to find someone...
So although I'm excited about seeing him again next week, I almost dread it at the same time. Perhaps he feels the same. So I'm asking you guys, what do you think? Does he care for me at all or is he just keeping me on the hook? I'm thinking that we just go for a "friendly" outing, nothing romantic, since if this is going to go anywhere we need to develop activities outside the bedroom...
Thanks for reading. Looking forward to ISTP feedback.
-- Miserable INFJ obsessed with ISTP