The question about what a leash is. Its like a mental claustrophobia. Dont hold me back from what I want or internally I feel like a guy in a straight jacket struggling to get free.
Give me everything I want while I am in a straight jacket and I will still fight. I am happier if I am free and you give me nothing. I will go after what I want, make me want you
To explain the fear, I watched an episode of 911 when I was younger where a guy was burried alive. The thought of dying isnt what bothered me, it was the thought of the struggle in being trapped. That is one of the only fears that has haunted me ever.