Do you feel you have your own unique way of looking at objects or reality? Typically we're all unique, but does it feel like people frequently don't 'get you'? I'll use a model to help focus the objective of this thread: When you're alone what do you make of what you observe? Where is your head at? Even if you suffer from an illness.
Me, regardless of any emotion, I view the world through...dull eyes. Almost plastic. Not to say depressed vision. It's like I witness the living network of things or the beauty of nature, but I can't form any connection with it and become apathetic. On days when I hone in on it, it drives me nuts and I try to make something happen. Cause a collapse. etc... Friends often find me indirect in my conceptions.
I think it'll be interesting to hear about how you process what you see. Sorry if this is bizarre