Thank you for sharing that. I truly do appreciate it.
I will tell you what I did do. I have not reacted at all to him. He continues and I just let them slip by. However, he was gone for about 2 weeks...and I went back and took a sentence he left for me and I sent it to his email. Just that sentence, nothing else at all.
He was back one day, and has been gone several since.......not a word. I didnt expect a world right away anyhow as anything emotional he has to sit on a bit.
I wonder what he might be thinking.......
Honestly, I feel like a deer in the headlights. First, I dont care to really sit much longer on the fence, as next year he will have the children in school and I have no formal anything about his leaving.....nothing just small talk. Second, I am afraid it is a hook and if I react it will develop into a whole new part of our relationship with him as a married and happy man (??? not sure about that part) and me as his emotional pacifier for infinity. I cannot do that. It goes against my morals and values...and is self-depreciating at the least. I wouldnt disrespect him that way either.