[ISTJ] Can any of you relate to what I am saying right now?

[LavenderSoda]

Have you ever been in one of those friendships that remind you of a relationship? If so, I think you can relate to this post. I woke up this morning with an intense realization. I know, how Introverted iNtuition of me. I just realized that I can't take it anymore. I am friends with a person who wants more than what I am capable of giving to them. I enjoy them but I can't deal with them. It is their energy that just brings me down. I get tense from their energy. It is thick, intense and just I can't explain it. It seems very normal from the naked eye but I can't do it anymore. This person loves me. It is clear this person is in love with me but I don't know I just cannot bring myself to go on with this any further. It isn't like anybody is doing anything wrong. I just don't feel comfortable. I don't feel that we click. I don't feel like I can share anything I want with this person. I don't trust this person. It is something in me that I cannot break. Its just this ringing sensation in my body that I have. Its just this tightening air feeling in my throat and in my stomach. I thought it was anxiety but it isn't. I can't do this anymore. Especially if you are in that situation where you are finally discovering what you enjoy in a official standpoint. It isn't like I don't know. Its just that I don't have a clarification as to why I dislike these things. I just do. I don't want to go into how the friendships necessarily works because I don't think any of you would understand. I will explain this though. I will explain that there was someone before all of this started. I wasn't sure how I felt about this person because this person doesn't have a good track record. I got up and I dusted myself off from my mind plaguing daydreams and decided that I could do better. I went out and I found somebody but now they are driving me nuts. Each time I talk to this person it makes me realize in a clearest way of how I feel. Its terrible because this person on paper is a lot better for me. I just can't do it. We don't click. I can't enjoy this person in this fashion. I enjoy them I just can't have them in my life. Like, I can't live with this person. I cannot sit down and talk to this person. I cannot share anything with this person. I just can't shake this feeling like everything is just going to come crashing and burning. I also like I feel in my soul that something is going to happen where I end up with the last person I talked about. I can't explain it. I just realized what is supposed to happen. I realized that everyone else was right. I don't know. I'm just really shaken up this morning.

 

[Puffypolma]