Right now I'm just enjoying some solitude at home and enjoying the relaxation of the weekend before I have to go back to school and be bombarded with homework and essays. (:
I got a lot of housework done today, so I feel like I've been productive, which leaves me feeling pretty good. Today's been a pretty good day compared to the rest of them lately. I started college a month and a half ago, and all but one of my friends left town. My very best friend left the state. It's been kind of hard, because I'm not a social butterfly. I get really attached to people who actually want to be friends with me. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have, a love to death. In the past I've had people I fully trusted ditch me for other people, and it hurts. I'm just hoping that the friends I have don't drift away from me now that we're out of high school and growing up. I can't bring myself to tell them about my worries, either, because I don't want them to feel responsible. I don't want to seem childish for whining to them about it, so I don't. It's not like I expect them to pack their things and come home. I guess I'm just anxious to see who lets me hang around in their lives now that we're adults...
Er... excuse my random emotional rant. O_o I wasn't expecting to go quite that far into it. xD At least today's been a good day.
This weekend has been great, intellectually speaking. I had an amazing introspective moment yesterday that changed my outlook on a lot of things, and an hour or so ago I had a really promising conversation with a guy on OkCupid, after sending him a message that I thought was a little out-there, but that he responded really well to.
So, needless to say, I'm feeling not happy, not sad, but content, satisfied, validated, and comfortable with who I am. What's the term I'm looking for... self-actualized?
Pretty good. I kind of understand what I'm doing in my math class, which almost never happens. I get to sleep in tomorrow. A little anxious though, because I need to write an essay this week. School school school. Can't wait for a break.