On the one hand, I really wish to see him again. It's not that I think we'd get back together (he sticks with a decision once he's made it, no matter how painful and I know it wouldn't work), but I probably would be internally hoping for some kind of resolution or a sign that I really had
mattered. The fact is, he remained single during those four months after we broke up (and it appears during the following year as well), which is unlike his past track record. He's chosen to be in touch, even if sporadically and in a fairly removed manner. I know that's about as good as it's gonna get, yet a part of me wishes for a chance to talk things over (and I know it's not going to happen) or for him to wish to spend time together to close the circle.
On the other hand, I don't want to appear to be following him there. He mentioned going a couple of years ago, but I didn't think at the time that he was serious about it. I think if he ignored me, that would be hard and if he didn't, then I'd still be looking for a specific response which may not be realistic for me to expect. This isn't exactly business - several friends are presenting at one of the workshops, but the majority of it is going to concerts and sessions - it's open to the public for anyone who enjoys fiddling, even though the papers being presented have a more formal scholarly aspect.