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    Default Dealing with the tedium of life

    I've come to the realization that I find almost everything I am familiar with "tedious." Perhaps you could call it feeling like I'm in a rut.

    It is a strange feeling in that it is also too comfortable for me to want to change it.

    Rationally speaking, it seems like I would be giving up what many people would love to have.

    I tell myself, I am being ungrateful, and that I should look on the bright-side of things.

    I tell myself, that it doesn't matter what I change. If I don't get my mind-right, it won't matter what I do to change the situation.

    But I've tred for well over two years to get my "mind right," but the situation still seems soul-sucking. If anything, my mind has proven to the rest of me that it was right, the situation sucks.

    I'm the proverbial frog being slowly boiled alive, as the temperature (tedium) increases.

    I feel like I am slowly being bored to death.

    It's not just my job (though I believe that is a big part of it). I don't want to do anything that is of consequence.

    My trash piles-up till my room-mate finally takes it out. I have once again, not done laundry in over a month. I don't remember the last time I cleaned house. I don't exercise. I can barely make it into work, and getting myself to do even the simplest thing is an exercise in mental manipulation.

    I just want to sleep (and sleep a lot), day-dream a bit, watch TV, and surf the web. It's not that I see a point in doing these particular activities, but I find I naturally do these things without exerting conscious effort. I don't see the point of doing any activity, really.

    I don't really even want to eat, but somehow I have managed to get at least one meal a day (usually two).

    I loose my train of thought easily.

    Anyone have tips for dealing with tedium?--extremely long-term tedium?

    It doesn't feel like the deep depression I had earlier, in that I am not sad--I actually don't feel much of anything, strongly.

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    I relate.

    I prefer a loud agony to a quiet death.

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    It seems like you're still depressed and suffering from a loss of hope. Have you considered talking to a professional?

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    Quote Originally Posted by ThatsWhatHeSaid View Post
    It seems like you're still depressed and suffering from a loss of hope. Have you considered talking to a professional?
    Will be going to psych. hospital in a couple of hours, for an evaluation.

    I think I ignored the warning signs.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ygolo View Post
    Will be going to psych. hospital in a couple of hours, for an evaluation.

    I think I ignored the warning signs.
    Are you checking in as voluntary?

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    I can definitely relate to everything you've said. I find myself in pretty much the same situation right now. Everything just feels like a giant chore, and I default to the things that don't feel that way.

    Last night, I had a friend call me out on not being around enough to talk with her. I mean, I'm always there for her when she needs me, but she was talking about just being present for the everyday chatting that doesn't really go anywhere. Sometimes, no matter how much I enjoy someone's company, it feels like work to maintain friendships. When I'm feeling more energetic/optimistic, it's fine, and I enjoy it. When I'm not, it's just one more thing life is demanding from me. I know my friends miss me when I default to hermit mode, but when I'm there, I just feel like I don't have anything to give. I can't explain to others why I'm fine spending time on a social message board, but don't feel chatty otherwise.

    I think a lot of what you've described is dysthymia, ygolo. It's sort of a low-grade, persistent depression that can last years. It sort of slowly sucks the life out of you, rather than being the anvil of depression that drops on your head.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ThatsWhatHeSaid View Post
    Are you checking in as voluntary?
    Not checking-in, just going for an evaluation.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ygolo View Post
    Will be going to psych. hospital in a couple of hours, for an evaluation.

    I think I ignored the warning signs.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ygolo View Post
    Not checking-in, just going for an evaluation.
    Oh I see. I think that's a wise move. Good for you for gathering the courage and energy to take a step like that, which I think is big and will give you some momentum.

    As to the topic, I get annoyed with tedium, but I don't think it has the same effect on me. I think it's because your mood is driving your perception (of being surrounding by boredom and tedium) rather than the other way around.

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