I've spent most of my university years adamantly believing I shouldn't and wouldn't go into research, partly because I didn't want to teach. However, recently a Ph.D. position has started to seem very attractive indeed. (You get to manage your own time! And work on fun stuff! And then you have to write clear, concise, catchy papers about it! And you get to do it all alone! ) I find myself reconsidering just how bad the teaching that is required by my university would be.
Here's the thing: I thoroughly suck at explaining things on the spot. I can give a good verbal presentation of something when I've had time to prepare beforehand (so if I could only skip ahead to giving lectures, I'd be fine ) but the preparation is crucial. Ask me a question I'm unprepared for, and I first hesitate and then flounder, not knowing where to start. Once I begin to feel that my pedagogical efforts are proving inadequate, I might as well give up; my mind goes blank and you wouldn't think I knew anything about the topic, let alone the answer to the question. I've had several teachers like this - most recently my professor and advisor, who gives inspiring lectures but fails to correctly understand most of the questions he gets let alone answer them satisfactorily - so I know how frustrating it is to be on the receiving end of such inept pedagogy. Aaand three of these teachers are likely INTJs, whereas I don't recall any good teachers who are likely INTJs.
So I guess my question is... Can INTJs be decent teachers (not lecturers, but teachers)? Please share your positive experiences. (The idea is, of course, for me to delude myself into thinking I can do this. )
(Okay, okay, you can rant about your negative experiences too. It's not like I can become more anxious about this.)