Friday night I felt good enough to play music and dance alone around my apartment
Saturday, I should have been even happier. I went out for dinner to a nice place with a large group of friends, then out to social gatherings with them. During dinner, despite being engaged in conversation, I felt very alone.
At the meeting, sitting with someone who I knew understood me, I felt alone.
And going to a club afterwards, being included socially (the people didn't know me WELL, but they immediately made room for me and we were talking and laughing the whole time), I still felt very alone.
So I came home and journaled.
And still felt alone.
Even at other times, when when people correspond deeply with me, I still have felt alone.