I've been struggling for quite some time now, and god, I can't tell whether I'm an ENTP or an INTP. I've studied the functions, taken several tests and compared and contrast descriptions, asked questions to those who seemed to be very well familiar with this subject and jumped from forum to forum and yet I am still unable to figure out whether I'm an ENTP or an INTP.
Honestly, I'd say that I'm ENTP because being INTP sounds too (idk, being INTP sounds too... -can't find the right word-) serious, I guess. But, how do I know I'm really ENTP and not just some INTP wanting to be an ENTP (or perhaps an ENTP wanting to be INTP)?
The tests say I'm INTP (even the cognitive function tests say so too, or at least the ranking goes like 1. INTP, 2. ENTP, 3. INTJ / ISTP ). But then I've studied the functions and I feel like I can relate with the Ne-Ti-Fe-Si arrangement more than the Ti-Ne-Si-Fe arrangement.
They say look at your inferior function, but my Fe is just as bad as my Si (or at least that's what I think??)
Anyway, I'm terribly confused.
Do ENTPs really love to argue? Do they really love to debate? As far as I'm aware I'm not very into debates, just thinking out loud. I like thinking out loud. Whether someone else can hear me or it's just me, I don't care. What's in my head needs to go out or else I wouldn't be able to fall asleep or relax. I like to write too. Writing is fabulous.
I hate losing at something I'm competent at. And I also hate losing against someone I find incompetent. But I don't usually have an opinion on things (i.e., I don't have an opinion on things that don't really concern me or I find uninteresting). I heard that the lower your Fe the less inclined you are in having an opinion on stuffs (specifically stuffs that don't generally appeal to you whatnot) and that describes me perfectly.
Oh yeah. Also, I either dislike or don't have an opinion on most people. Very rarely I genuinely like a person. Reading tends to relax me too.
I think books are very magical. No one bothers you because they see you're doing something. And they charge you with interesting thoughts and ideas to ponder on. I was reading Kafka on the Shore (by Haruki Murakami) a few days ago, and aside from the plot (story itself), I was generally pleased by the fact that no one was bothering me. Haha! It was like I had this protective guard against people I found a nuisance.
That aside. Can someone help me out a bit in this matter?
Is it possible to be an INTP who's mostly talkative, enjoys talking about ideas and talking about how I got from one idea to another, talking about interesting stuff and so on and so forth? Is it possible to be an ENTP who in spite of liking discussing ideas hate having to talk to people?
Small talks usually throw me off and most of the time one of those shit begins, I just sort of want to shoot myself in the head. That or I become sorely tempted to change the topic (but then the thought that those people are actually enjoying those small talks make me feel like I don't want to share my idea with them as it would be a waste).
I dislike it when there's this deep meaningful conversation going on and some trash ends it with a small talk. LIKE, WHY DID YOU JUST DO THAT? Throws me off. I like it when the conversation runs deep. But deep doesn't have to be heavy (like uncomfortably heavy). It could be deep but passionate or casual (but I think a lot of people miss that point).
I'm a fast talker and I have this tendency of using all capital letters when typing. It gives a sense of urgency. I feel like I'm "talking fast" in my writing when I use capital letters. I like it.
Anyway, please help me. Thanks.