I was always slightly above average. My main concern was to prove to myself that I could be the top student if I tried. So I would usually put in a lot of effort at some stage, get top marks and then lapse into apathy-induced mediocrity. I must've been pretty frustrating to teachers and lecturers. My poor-to-nonexistent self-discipline always held me back. This isn't to say that I didn't usually pay attention in class. When it was interesting. The exception to all this is maths and math-related subjects. I always sucked in those.