So, from what do I start? It' s been not so long since I discovered the MBTI typing system( this summer I guess) , but I was surprised on how accurate describtions it gave to me. The INTP describtion was all about me, except for some few traits. What is untipical for an INTP for me is that I can understand mine and other' s feelings, even though I' m bad at displaying my own feelings( except if someone angers me a lot, then I have a frustration outburst) . And then I learned about cognitive functions. All of them seemed fitting to me, except for one. Instead of Fe, the inferior function of an INTP, I seem to use Fi. I decide whether to stand up for somthing or not, hold up to my own morals instead of living by those set by society, my emotions are more expressed in actions rather than words, and I try to control mood rather than just give in to it( like, when I listen to music, I mostly choose songs to change my mood instead of choosing ones that fit my mood, which is a Fi trait) .
Currently I' m sixteen, but I' m pretty sure I underwent the teenage crisis several years ago, and my personality is stable. I have no doubts I am an INTP, I took several tests, besides many events in my life show it. Even as a kid, in school I always was the logical one, that' s why I' m sure I' m a T, and not an F. I never liked being in the crowds or large companies, so there is no way I' m an extrovert. I prefer to build knowledge based on logical patterns and theoretical outcomse rather than actual experience, and appear to be head - in - the - air to others all the time( I' m always thinking something inside my head) . Though my P sometimes borders with J( I like strategizing and can be manipulative sometimes if I need to achieve my goal) , it' s more fitting to me, as routine seems boring to me, and I prefer to not making any schedules, since there is always a possibility something out of place will happen, I am not orderly, and usually adapt plans yo what is in the moment( which is also one of the few S traits I have) . I am not emo/ depressed/ with personality disorders( though I suffered a depression a year ago) , and like I said, my character is perfectly stable. Yet this Fi seems totally out of place.
I am also sure it' s not upbringing. My parents divorced when I was really little, my father left and never contacted again, and I lived with my mother, so he had no influence on me. Though my mother doesn' t know about MBTI( in fact, she' s not an Internet person at all) , from my observations she looks like an ISTJ, but totally neglects her Fi. My grandma is a strong ESFJ( and a total personality clash with me) , I can see it very clearly. My other relatives don' t livw with me, so they don' t have direct influence on me.
To be sure I took cognitive functions tests, and I always got Fi instead of Fe. Besides, another odd trait is that not only I had my Ti and Ne at 100%, but also I had high Te and Ni. That' s what I got in one of them:
Te (Extroverted Thinking) (70%)
your valuation of / adherence to logic of external systems / hierarchies / methods
Ti (Introverted Thinking) (100%)
your valuation of / adherence to your own internally devised logic/rational
Ne (Extroverted Intuition) (100%)
your valuation of / tendency towards free association and creating with external stimuli
Ni (Introverted Intuition) (90%)
your valuation of / tendency towards internal/original free association and creativity
Se (Extroverted Sensing) (40%)
your valuation of / tendency to fully experience the world unfiltered, in the moment
Si (Introverted Sensing) (55%)
your valuation of / focus on internal sensations and reliving past moments
Fe (Extroverted Feeling) (30%)
your valuation of / adherence to external morals, ethics, traditions, customs, groups
Fi (Introverted Feeling) (65%)
your valuation of / adherence to the sanctity of your own feelings / ideals / sentiment
based on your results your type is likely - unclear
Could you please tell me how is this possible? And is it normal that I use a shadow function instead of a primary one?
P. S. Is my English okay? I' m not a native speaker.