I will put this here so lurkers will not find out about graveyard section.
And I am doing this now while everybody stil have clear memory.
Actually I want to talk about what just happened at graveyard after all I came to this forum searching the answers about social norms.
From experiance I know that many people would be in relatively bad shape after this.
But all of this has no real impact on me.
When this happens in real life I simply don't give a damn what other person thinks about me.
This time it happend that I started to laught like a fool but in real life I would continue my thing even if the entire room is laughing at me and would not have a problem staying in that room .
This could be hard to belive but words of other people have no emotional impact on me and there is good chance that it would not have any impact at all.
In case that other preson is determined to insult me I will start to laugh and start to insult myself just to confuse other person or make them uncomfortable which will make them stop.
But there are other things that make me shameless.
For example in 4. grade we were on the field trip.
We were stationed in on huge room whit many beds and one large bathroom
But all of us have to take the shower in that bathroom.But other guys were always creating problems for the one who is showering and the same was for me.They were trying to convince me that they will open the shower cabin so they could see me naked.They were convinced that they are creating very strong anxiety to strong introvert in cabin (me).But I did not reaspond so they stoped.
So I have decided that it is time to show them whit who they are dealing whit.
I have exit the cabin completly naked and walked in that big room where was the rest of the class(girls also) and said "In case you wanted to see something here is your chance" and they could see absolutly all of it(both sides).
But this is not isolated incident of my social behavior and there are cases where situation was much worse then case mentioned above. But almost all incidents are done because I don't folow the rules or I am not aware of them at all.
But this behavior scares other people a lot. Many people think that I am
some sort of a madman. What is totally understandable.
Whit time I have exepted this as my social position.
After all see my nick name on this forum.
But situation would be much more simple that I am just some junkie but whit some luck I will be Ph. D. one day.
What I would really like to know is how other side actually think/feel about things like this.
Because It look like I will need to change some things in my life.