Yes. I was an atheist until a couple of years ago when I ....i guess "converted"...to christianity. It's a little difficult because most of the people around me think religious people are stupid, bigots an so I'm kind of in the closet about it. I think there are "cultural christians" who follow cultural traditions more than religious principles and give everyone a bad name be being hateful. I sometimes feel conflicted about believing. Questioning "am I being stupid?". Bur for some reason, even thought I doubt most things all the time, I haven't gone back on believing. I dunno .
It easier for me to imagine a universal force of God than a personal father like God. The idea of the relation part is what i struggle with most.
I started going to a new church with some friends. It's a small congregation most people there are artists, lots are more "alternative looking" and they are generally younger. It's a breath of fresh air compared to all the the old school baptist and mega churches in the area.
"The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters". Thats my favorite thing to think about.
That's cool. I'm kind of in the same boat.
Christianity has had it's share of bigots and loons, as well as thinkers and scientists. You're just in the latter category. In current America, being one of those "evil people with brains" and Christian at the same time might be strange, but it's not strange in the context of history. You could find giants of rational thought like Descartes, who was Christian. You could go back 1500 years and find Augustine, who was just as much a Platonist as a he was Christian. He's often called a pillar of Christianity in both Protestant and Catholic thought. As for the loons, much of current Evangelical American thought is a product of the 1800s, and the culture of "pioneers" and offshoot pastors trying to make churches of their own. Many are not even all that "traditional". Their traditions are relatively young. Even the craziest stuff that seems "old" is turn of the century (like snake handler churches didn't pop up until the early 1900s). Their rhetoric would convince people that they've laid claim to the "ancient church", but half of the time, they just learned something from their grandpa. And half of time of that, most of the message revolves around money. And even then, sometimes the message isn't even Christian. The world according to the Glen Becks of the world is Mormonism (another pioneer religion from the 1800s, but one that's taken a strong hold lately). They wear magic underwear, think Jesus was actually Michael the Archangel, some guy named Joseph Smith is the greatest prophet of all time, and... well, I think aliens are involved somewhere too. Not sure.