No, I don't pretend to be disturbed by it. It truly is confusing at times. It's a different language than the one I speak. I do get better with age, but it's still not my native tongue. It's not disturbing, it's confusing/baffling at times. Doesn't mean I don't respect it or respect the emotional person, it's just that I have a hard time relating to it or knowing what the right thing to say might be.Do you just pretend to be disturbed by what some might deem irrational mumbo-jumbo while secretly eating it up?
It really is pretty flat in the inner world. The inner world consists of Ti and Si. Ti + Si = logic rock. Ne and Fe are our fluffly, emotional realm - that's the goofy, playful, silly, easy going, semi-affectionate side that people see. When I'm with people, they see that side of me. They see some of my emotions. When I go home and get into Ti/Si mode, there isn't much of that. It's buidling systems, thinking about work. It's cold, hard analysis. Logic. Black and white. Learning, reading, exploring. It's not about emotions when we're by ourselves. Emotions is what we have to do when we extrovert, because we are Fe. If I'm alone and I feel emotional (rare), I have to call someone or talk to someone. I have to extrovert it. It can't stay inside cuz I don't really know what to do with it internally. It has to be expressed in some way.And what is your emotional state usually like in that rich inner world? Flat? Underlying?
I like people who can invoke a "passion" for life and deep discussion and having fun while we do those things. If you can invoke my passion and have a deep discussion with me, then inevitably, some of my emotion will come to the surface. You will see some emotion from me. But, I can't say that I go around looking for "emotion". I look for passion and depth. Only thing I can think of where I might be looking for emotion is sometimes when I'm with a bunch of T's for a long time...like a bunch of guy friends talking about beer and football and race cars.............or a bunch of robotic conversation about math and engineering for several hours, then I might think to myself, "Good grief.................are there any humans in this room? Anyone who has a zest for life or anything?" And I feel like I have to get away from that place. So, maybe that is seeking out emotion to some degree.*pokes INTP robot with stick* I've seen more than a few INTP's come across as rather apathetic, and wonder if you really DO like people that can invoke strong emotions.. but am I wrong? Is it always uncomfortable for you?
But, again, I'd say it's more about passion and depth than it is emotion. Emotion can overlap with those things for sure, but if the emotion lacks passion and depth (and hopefully SOME FREAKIN' degree of logic to bring balance to it), then I'm not going to last very long with that emotional atmosphere. I'll check out real quick cuz it's just not my language.