In every public situation, even in the absence of alcohol, I fire-hose down people with talk at 5,000 RPM.
I cannot stop speed-talking and I can jabber on for hours.
Consider a few nights ago whilst bar-hopping in lower Manhattan: my unique dialogue (or should I say monologue) had apparently magnetized every woman to me within earshot of my jabber only to observe them withdraw, inflicted with a syndrome of cognitive dissonance.
People don't find me annoying because my "drunken dialogue" actually has some substance, and I speak of relevant events and phenomenon that people are interested in. I've been told that I'm very entertaining and stimulating, however, my intensity of expression coupled with my speedy turbo-talk just takes it overboard.
Is it normal for ENTJs to dump information all over the place like a backhoe?
I mean, I just can't stop talking. To slow down my sentences and make them more generic would be to force myself to act unnaturally.
The other night, a few MILFs I was hitting on thankfully expressed their critique of my bar etiquette and personality (of which was well-received). They told me that I was probably the smartest person they've met to date, and made it to the top of their funny list - but overall, I had an extremely intense character which was just way too much.
Women will tell me point blank: "I can't handle you at all" or "You are [insert compliments], but my brain has gone into OVERLOAD."
My verbal transmission is apparently flawed at every gear. At first I come off as intense and captivating, but then as I try to smooth things out I become way too sporadic and superficial.
They say I'm a colorful character with distinguished finesse of stellar charm and a non-generic vocabulary, but I end up just "overloading" people (women in particular).
As a matter of fact, the only women that can handle me are Asians.
As a white male in my mid-twenties, the only form of love or affection I have experienced came from Asian girls. I really do love their company, they're cute, and most of them can (with pleasure) entertain my deep intellectual conversations with a casual twist for HOURS. My intuition tells me that I'll probably end up marrying somebody Asian (whether Chinese, Japanese, Korean, etc...).
I talk extremely fast with articulacy, however, at the end of the night women just tell me I did a good job of overloading them to the brink of cognitive dissonance.
Is it my Achilles Heel, or a figment of my imagination?
Should I just try to be the generic male who keeps it simple? ...
Or spin those webs of artful dialogue?
The only problem is that I CAN'T keep it simple. It's unnatural for me, and I won't be acting 'myself.'
And yes, I do humble myself. I ask tons of questions and yield to others' comments and opinions with reverence. I have the utmost respect for women, have never touched anyone inappropriately, and give out many complements. I make sure it's stays a two way street, and I'm always eager to showcase others in a positive light.
It all comes down to this: I turn heads and captivate, but at the end of the day I'm a women deterrent.