My job has just engulfed my social life completely.
I'm in top management of a retail corporation -- which translates into 36 hour shifts, dreaming about tomorrow's sales figures, a 12 page "to do" list and eating problems for breakfast (yuuummm).
I've lost touch of old friends - I remember I used to go to parties and blow the roof of the place and wake up in someone else's bed with bleeding scratch marks all over my chest lol. Good times.
But deep down I knew "the life" wasn't for me, and I traded it for the corporate life.
Now I wake up in the morning and go straight to the Fox Business channel, fix my tie and while I'm at it cup of coffee too, then speed to the office, sit down, (the phone rings) and let hell unleash itself on me for the next 17 hours.
I love the "rush" of it and I've been in business so long I'm starting to fall in love with the corporate life. Or I'm loosing my mind.
Its 5:00 AM, still awake from yesterday - and I'm wondering where my old self is.
Is this normal for an ENTJ? I mean I'm really driven in the business world, but my greatest fear is that I'll loose my ability to "not act corporate" but more like a regular human being.
An old buddy of mine threw a party a few weeks ago and I went. - my confidence is still with me but I cant seem to relate to people unless the topic of business is entailed.
I've read somewhere that ENTJs can become isolationists. Well, I feel like crap when I'm not around people, It really makes me feel like something's missing. But when I'm around others who arent my co-workers - I cant relate to them like I used to.
Bottom line: Are there fluctuations between I/E in a typical ENTJ? Can their drive for excellence compromise their regular social fluency?