Im really getting sick of my intp preferences.
ATM all i'm doing is staying in my flat constantly all day when i know i should be out looking for work.I keep creating and trying these little 'life hacks' to get me motivation to get a job but i just don't seam to have the confidence to go out and look for one.Today i made my mind up that i was going have a 'do day',Got a few things sorted but now I'm back on hear, going all introspective searching the net for a answer to why I'm behaving like i am to try and fix it but i never do and go round and ******* round in circles,Its horrible! Everyone tells me to get a job, get a job, get a job, that's all i hear.I just wanna fit in and be normal like everyone else, it turns even worse when i get stressed and cant figure out how im feeling and i mess my life up even more! People say,i wont change, and maybe i wont, but i know if i don't i'm doomed,relationships, money etc, and changing or improving my situation in the outside world is so so stressful i just resort back to endless time on the computer.It feels like i need someone by my side to help me get on my feet, but when i try and get help no1 understands to be able to give me the correct help.Its so horrible, because i know what i need to do, i know what will help me, but doing it is another thing.Im wondering if anyone on hear can help me? Im really in a rut, 10 weeks behind on rent, going more more unhealthy in the head, and just cant get myself out of this