Confused. My internal clock seems to be totally out of whack. Being tired at 8pm, tried to stay awake until after 9pm to avoid this - waking up at 3am and being fully awake now (4am, local time). Probably I'll be tired by noon now and I don't want to be, 'cause my parents are visiting.
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It's funny, but I feel more emotion for him than myself even though we both lost the same person. If I think about her being dead, it doesn't illicit much of an emotional response, but if I think about my dad crying about it, my eyes well up and I feel an uncontrollable urge to sob. All I want to do is be there for him with a hug and a joke and when I can give him that it feels...gosh...how to explain.
When he's crying next to me and I have my hand on his back and I'm sort of feeling his sadness, I feel so alive and like I am perfect where I am. I feel uncomfortable, but just pushing that aside and letting myself be compassionate feels so good and human. It's like I'm unlocking this whole new dimension to myself that's kind of like a newborn horse - weak and wobbly, but cute and looking at the world with fresh eyes.