So I've finally saved up the money (what a barbarity of the capitalist system that people who can't pay, basically don't get any psychological help, and yet clearly the poorer you are the more stressed you are and the more you need it).
Officially this is going to be about a phobia I have of flying insects (embarrassing, I know), but I think this relates to deeper issues and an obsessive need for control over my "own " space/life/body, which has hindered me in relationships quite seriously, and also in terms of sex. This has made me bitter towards women and exes, especially, which I don't like, as it also goes against my beliefs (I support feminism).
My mum knows a hypnotherapist and had been nagging me to see her about the phobia, so I am taking the chance!
I'll use this thread as a kind of blog or some shit when I feel like posting about the issue, but feel glad that I'm finally taking a step to sort my life out! I feel better just from having taken the decision and committed to it.