I once had a fear of success, and I replaced it with a fear of failure. It was brilliant, but no one appreciated it (going the extra mile and working outside the box has done nothing except given me average-below average grades. This wouldn't be so bad if my Dad wasn't pounding his INTJ-ness into my head, and my mother, her ISFJ), and now it has been usurped by a fear of success.
Why am I afraid to succeed? Because I'm afraid I might lose the ability to goddamn fail!
Failures are opportunities to move forward with a new thought or idea in hand, and I think that for every creative misdemeanor I committed, it foreshadowed something new and shiny just around the block, and I did well to seize it. In other words, I don't want to succeed *within the realm of the rubric*, and yet it feels like the rubric is pulling my big ideas down to size. They teach me not how to execute the big ideas but then how to do the little ones, and then when I actually have a big opportunity I have no idea what to do with it.
grrrr it's a defeatist attitude </rant>
(PS what's my type based on this post)