I haven't been around in awhile but my cousin and her 4 year old daughter were recently murdered. I have a family full of feelers and S's. They want to be touchy-feely and cry but I can't get in touch with my feelings like that. I know that I have to grieve to move on, so it is something on my list. :-)
Any suggestions? Is there any way to speed this up or at least make it more predictable? I don't enjoy crying and sitting around doing nothing is driving me crazier. My immediate family needs me to be pulled together but I fear that if I do nothing I will crack when it is most inconvenient. This person was my best friend growing up, we lived together so it was more like losing my sister and niece. To put it in perspective, I actually cried... in front of people... with cameras... who happen to be working for the AP. It's serious but I don't know what to do.