Has anyone else been through this? I'm seeing life as a system- one that everyone is caught up in. But after a while of trying to play "the system," I find myself being played instead.
What a bitch.
I do understand.
The only solution I came up with is: differentiate. For example dont be a play with people you like, let them play with you that will always put you in the position of the relieable guy that one can count on and play with people you dont like, play as long as you can and than hope for backup.
It's a lie the most fundamental one but it is what I am.
Only thing to keep you going will be one day the bond to one person only of which you can say "At the end we both stand alone"
"How dreadful!" cried Lord Henry. "I can stand brute force, but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use. It is hitting below the intellect." ~ Oscar Wilde - The picture of Dorian Gray