It's tied to all that matters, to all that matters.. one could say they belong to a club that has a 3-letter abbreviation. One could say what's behind those 3 letters that make them matter all that much? I haven't had much else.
I didn't start out arrogant. I first became lonely for speaking in a kind of written language as a child. I had read a huge number of books before the time people usually knew how to spell their name. That kind of stuff was interesting. I don't know if I met a lot of people of my age when I was young, as I was home-schooled to the age of 6, when people usually went to preschool at the age of 4.
First I became sad for not connecting to the people of my age, intellectually. Then I became sad for not connecting with them, as I was behind them in social development. I'm not sure I've ever completely recovered from all of that.