In my diagnosis you seem to have given way to human emotion rather than following the dictates of reason. Emotions are not an entirely unknown quantity. They indicate what they will be tomorrow by what they are today. It is, therefore, likely that until you resolve this matter through rigorous intellectual thought, this overall feeling, as it were, will persist. In order to resolve this feeling, therefore, requires objectification and intellectualization of the feeling. As such, you will need to translate the feeling into words in a way that is accessible to contemplation and careful analysis. On the other hand, in the concrete world it is often the case that a base emotion doesn't just go away but only goes away when it is superceded by another base emotion. As a result, you can use your conscious will to direct yourself to pursue activities that have historically shown a strong correlation between the experience and the feeling. Thus, the first question you must ask is how would you like to feel? The common answer would be happy. Then what, therefore, has historically provided you with happiness and peace of mind? Personally, I know that one of the calmest environments known to me is sitting by a blazing fire contemplating. This creates a dynamic for deep introspection and reflection and I can therefore think through feelings that had hitherto been locked up. Further, I know that if I sense I am in a slump, going and playing hockey or drinking something with caffein in it will help perk me up. Thus, you are your own psychologist and you, therefore, will need to establish an accounting of your history with a catelogue of emotions and the environments that correletated with those emotions. Then your duty is clearly defined. If you want to feel X, subject yourself to an environment that has historically allowed you to feel X. Now, it could be the case that you're not as formulaic as most, and that getting you to feel a certain way is not as simple as Y=mx+b. Such is the irrational nature of emotion. Nonetheless, as an INTJ the two approaches above have historically been an effective way for me to deal with these sorts of things.