I am going crazy.
I consider myself multifaceted. I know alot of things, about alot of things. I can read people like books, with little to no knowledge of them. I can pick up instruments fairly quick, and pretty much learned guitar on a whim. I can shoot guns pretty well, compared to most people shooting much longer than me I am far more accurate. I know many "fun facts" and am decently knowledgeable about various topics I care about, which is to say more knowledgeable abotu them than 75% of people, but pwned by masters lol.
I have morals, ideas and beliefes which change, accourding to evidence. I have a good girlfriend. I am a "celtic punk" and love the music. I consider myself a freethinker. I look one stereotype (baddass punk kid), act another (Intellectual). I am analytical and obsessive, but it has allowed me to prosper on almost anything I have ever put any effort towards. I am great at starting businesses, but never anything considered "a real job" (NOT selling drugs either lol) I hero worship characters like House M.D., Roland Deschain, and Sherlock Holmes.
And i am going apeshit crazy. In the in-between times that I am not obsessing about ONE thing, I obsess about all of these.
It gets to the point where I walk around in a daze, feeling like I want to Spartan kick the next ignorant self delusioned dumbass, or emo stripped sweatshirt wearing sheep person, down a giant ass Spartan PIT.
I also start thinking about how I am wasting life, I only get one, and that i could die at any time. I never stick with one thing long enough to do everything i want with it, but during the period of time I obsess about it, ill do everything i want, so im limited/ not limited. But if my period of time runs up...then i suddenly dont care about it anymore.
And it is driving me crazy.
Its like im spending my life trying to find the ONE thing I do that I will use to define me.
Like a "Musician" that does all these other things
Or a "writer" that does these other things.
And i know people are more multi faceted than that, but i mean a large defining thing.
I need a purpose. I yearn to use my talents for SOMETHING.
Bligh...I have forgotten the face of my father (Plus 10 points if you know that quote)