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    Quote Originally Posted by Antimony View Post
    So, in short, it is what people call 'bottling up', even if it is completely unintentional.
    Exactly. I have noticed for example that in times of great emotional stress there have been occasions where I would feel these feelings bottled up and I felt like they had to come out because I could not deal with the feeling of internal, unresolved pressure.

    In the past, I have resolved this by punching things, getting into fights, or even by punching myself in the leg, so that I could feel something. But, I think this bottling up is dangerous and can lead to a numbness that could make one suicidal. The question is not, "Will I feel pain?", but "How and in what measure will I feel pain?". We suppress the daily pains and hurts at great personal risk because it will come out. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but eventually and maybe explosively. Then the lie of emotional control will be in full view.
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    Quote Originally Posted by jenocyde View Post
    I understand that logically, but I don't feel "bottled up". I just release tensions in a different way. Tennis, running, writing, whatever... I would like to be able to ride a feeling though. Next time I feel the urge, I'll try what you suggested Syn.
    You may have noticed that I post a lot less recently. A lot of this is because I have calmed down somewhat. I seem to post less when I am less manic. Much of this calmness is the result of letting things happen to me. Letting myself feel the bad feelings as well as the usual good feelings I have always chased. I make it a little game. Like, "Oh, that was an unpleasant thought. Where does it come from? Why does it hurt like that?"
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    Quote Originally Posted by Synarch View Post
    You may have noticed that I post a lot less recently. A lot of this is because I have calmed down somewhat. I seem to post less when I am less manic. Much of this calmness is the result of letting things happen to me. Letting myself feel the bad feelings as well as the usual good feelings I have always chased. I make it a little game. Like, "Oh, that was an unpleasant thought. Where does it come from? Why does it hurt like that?"
    Yes, I have noticed your absence.
    Very interesting post, Syn. I need to think about this for a while.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Synarch View Post
    Exactly. I have noticed for example that in times of great emotional stress there have been occasions where I would feel these feelings bottled up and I felt like they had to come out because I could not deal with the feeling of internal, unresolved pressure.

    In the past, I have resolved this by punching things, getting into fights, or even by punching myself in the leg, so that I could feel something. But, I think this bottling up is dangerous and can lead to a numbness that could make one suicidal. The question is not, "Will I feel pain?", but "How and in what measure will I feel pain?". We suppress the daily pains and hurts at great personal risk because it will come out. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but eventually and maybe explosively. Then the lie of emotional control will be in full view.

    I need to make sure that I try to acknowledge the pain. In the long run, it looks considerably more healthy. I am typically a person who is always on the edge, of anything. People think I am nuts for it.

    So I have to figure out the proper measurements of pain, and how to handle it. This will be interesting the next time such a need occurs. It will be trying to open myself vs my self analysis. I analyze everything. I never slow down.
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    It's good that you are able to recognize all this so early in life, Antimony.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jenocyde View Post
    It's good that you are able to recognize all this so early in life, Antimony.
    I try to keep myself open. If I closed myself to anything and everything, I would have no room for growth. Above all else, I must never be a step behind.
    Excuse me, but does this smell like chloroform to you?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Antimony View Post
    I need to make sure that I try to acknowledge the pain. In the long run, it looks considerably more healthy. I am typically a person who is always on the edge, of anything. People think I am nuts for it.

    So I have to figure out the proper measurements of pain, and how to handle it. This will be interesting the next time such a need occurs. It will be trying to open myself vs my self analysis. I analyze everything. I never slow down.
    People think the same thing about me, especially when I am on edge and manic.

    Analysis is a way of keeping something at arm's length. And like you said, you never slow down. I do the same thing. Slowing down means that unbidden thoughts creep in. These are typically negative feelings as this is part of our inferior function (Fi), if I am not mistaken. Inferior functions tend to be more negative as they are less under our conscious control. But, this never slowing down is a flight from the voice inside. As soon as I saw that, I started listening better. And the more I listened, the more I became friends with it. Even if it seemed big and dark and scary at first.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Antimony View Post
    I try to keep myself open. If I closed myself to anything and everything, I would have no room for growth. Above all else, I must never be a step behind.
    Yes, yes I know all that - we're all the same that way. But I mean having the opportunity to even learn about all of this. I am open to all things but there was no wealth of internet resources even 10 years ago, so I literally had no idea.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jenocyde View Post
    Yes, yes I know all that - we're all the same that way. But I mean having the opportunity to even learn about all of this. I am open to all things but there was no wealth of internet resources even 10 years ago, so I literally had no idea.
    I believe in this idea that we cannot really hear something until we're ready to hear it. So, to me, we can't hear what we need until we're ready and tired of being the other way.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Synarch View Post
    I believe in this idea that we cannot really hear something until we're ready to hear it. So, to me, we can't hear what we need until we're ready and tired of being the other way.
    Possibly, but not everything in life is that mystical. Sometimes, information is simply not available. But I get what you are saying.

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