I have five minutes before I need to trek off to my Friday afternoon class, but want to try giving a cursory answer . . .
Re: op--Struggle. Much doubt when younger, particularly to do with implicitly noticing the nonsensical conformities in organized religion (mostly, through age 13, I disliked church goings-on because my parents would force me to wear formal clothing without good reasoning). Was mostly apathetic through high-school, arriving at a palpable identification with polytheisms as a means-to-an-end shortly before graduating (that is, I decided it seemed pretty neat to claim "my patron god is Thor").
Looked at things more in-depth when starting early undergrad Philosophy-major courses, meeting a preacher about two years ago. I listened to his arguments, and found almost all of them to be incompatible with my view--everything he said reeked of giving an "easy answer" to difficult questions.
Currently, I respect "faith" but not "belief." There is a fine distinction between them--I have found people who claim absolute belief in any kind of deity generally have poor reasons. However, I understand faith as something internally illogical, and thus am almost always willing to listen to the views of persons with faith in whatever religion.
Personally, I am atheistic while somehow having faith in a form of afterlife. I'm just about out of time, but I want to try explaining a little more detail here: I find myself having the greatest amount of faith in my own willpower, such that I have trouble accepting the belief that my intellect will perish along with my body. I might even assert *belief* that my will is strong enough such that my mind will persist, whether there is an exterior world in which for it to persist or not after my body ceases to function.
Might add more later (or at least proof-read after I get back from class).