At what age you developed your current personality?
I remember I dreamed of taking over the world ever since I was 11. Then I started reading books about napoleon, Mao and Lenin.
I was quite shy and introverted in high school, but inside I was ambitious and determined to change the fate of my country. If I have to succeed like the great heros in history and make my mark in this world, I have to take many uncalculated risks. These people fought against the law and lived like criminals before they suceed, and many of them died for their dream.
Back in hgh school, the Se culture didn't really fitted me, but it made me realized alot. The people that stands out from the crowd are always EPs, they had no reservations about failure and their reputation plummeting to the ground. Some of these people reach the top, while others become fools everyone mocked at. But what they had in common is courage, the courage to be themselves, to perform in front of thousands of people and not afraid of being judged as an idiot. I know that it is this same type courage that shaped the forces of history.
As i grow, the the world made more sense to me, to do the impossible, I must overcome my shyness and introversion. I must go out there and risk.
Risk is what drives people to achieve greatness. the world seem so vast and great, and there is so much to learn from experience. education has never taught me what it is like to be a perciever. To be a perciever is much more challenging than a judger, because you have to live with the consequences of your actions. The people who climb the world's highest mountains, who goes to a foreign country without a dollar in their pocket, and who fought in the world's greatest wars are all percievers. They carry with them not a plan, but a determination to succeed and a desire to live their life on the edge. These are the people I aspire to become. To truly live without fear, one must embrace the randomness of this world rather than be frightened by it.
I had also become more emprical. I seek to learn from experience rather than be frightened by it, and put what I think into practice. I am curious about everything, and I seek experience more than truth. What works does not have to logical, but it must work in reality. I am interested in the abstract, but the abstract must be put into practice in reality in order to gain insight. Deep inside I am still sensitive about certain things, but I try to overcome these with logic.
I am really fascinated by this development, because I think I was typeless in age 11.