only when i stress out.
i have a priority queue running inside my head for what i want/need to think about, and most of the time it's empty from needs. however, whenever i get stressed out, it starts filling up and i start malfunctioning. it's like a silent panic or an ArraySizeException.
i start doing whatever it is i need to do, even if i can't find an obvious solution to it. after a while, then feeling automatically gets soothed and i return to a stable state of mind.