that it might as well have been done in reality. Then, it's like, meh. No point actually trying. Challenge not quite worth it for the 'true' experience. Next time, next one. ...Um...maybe.
But, I do know a bit of (over)underhanded arrogance comes about. A sly coverup for the P-ness. Pour moi.
Most important questions, imo, pertaining to ^ existential crisis, which becomes uniquely hard/interesting, when one's an inclined optimist:.....ever feel like ennui will utterly engulf you if you don't keep on "adding plates", to use Synarch's brilliant analogy? Do you yearn for something that will be able to force you out of autopilot? Stop this feeling of coasting through 'til you get to an important part that never comes?
- do I limit learning by always thinking that I can swing by on the fly? Do I miss out on learning another perspective?Trying it 'nother way?
For all things sane and holy...a plan?!!
(for all my change, some aspects of how I conduct/approach life, unfortunately (fortunately), I'm stubborn to change...plan anarchist here, self-confessed )
- as a harsh reality shake: do I have a right to complain, when I, in part, throw the potential away? Which then I inevitably feel a sense of melancoly that skews my perception of the world (even if for just a short while, it tends to be bone weary, heavy).
In essense, what right do I have though to ask the universe to 'challenge me more'? What hubris?
(why should I expect the world to challenge me? Why do I not go out to seek, harder? what right do I have to complain about the hamster wheel if, in part, I'm on it out of my own volition?**)
** measure of degree is important for consideration in the above condition