Wow! I really relate to all this and i'm not sure if thays a good or a bad thing!?!?
I have a sorta constant fear of boredom that lurks at the back of my mind and makes me want to do shit all the time. Shit that actually means something. Like today i spent most of the day sleeping or playing games while a little vioce screamed "WTF do you think your doing! This is just pointless shit your doing!"
^ Yeah jenocyde i think about survival stuff all the time. Like after discovering the fallout series i keep on thinking of ways to survive a nuclear wasteland!